Goliath and Me

I always love the story of David and Goliath. Actually I’m the biggest fan of David, especially when he had that courage to fight Goliath. This story was so popular and this is the favorite story when I shared it with the kids in Sunday school service, though. 

 So, when I say “GOLIATH”, what is the first think we have in our mind ?? a giant, a big tall fella, with big muscle and with a big heavy sword and with a scary face, he had a big heavy voice like a lion when he rawr .. Yeah, I bet we will think the same.

Lets pretend we have fight with Goliath, what would we have in our mind ?? Facing that big giant while we are so tiny and not very equal size with him. Scare ?? Maybe scare is not the right word for me. Maybe I would not scare, though. But I would have a doubtful feeling when I facing Goliath. First, I doubt if I could win or not. And second, I doubt if I have enough capability to fight this monster.

Well, now I want us to learn from David. What was behind his courage, what was David thinking when he step forward to fight Goliath the giant ??

Everyone of us must already know that God is behind all the question above. Yes, definitely ! But let us think as a reality. David was an ordinary person like all of us, though. But what was behind all his courage and his spirit when he bravely face the Goliath, would us have the same courage like David’s ??

I ever shared that life is not an easy journey, do you guys believe that ?? Hope you have the same opinion with me. But then I learned to saw something from every circumstances that I had passed. I always remember, when I got worried on something, I always got succeed to passed that path. Even sometimes it was too difficult and maybe it was too impossible for me to passed it, but eventually, I always could make it ! Yay !!!

I know, I wouldn’t be make it if it was not because of God’s help. And I wouldn’t be succeed to passed it if there wasn’t God walked with me and hold me. It’s true .. believe me I’ve seen so many miracles that makes me wonder how really great my God is !

Now, I would shared about Goliath. Well, Goliath was not that bad actually. Have you guys ever thought before that actually we kinda always met this Goliath in our life. It’s the same thing when I have to face something that worried me much.

One thing that God reminds me, why David had that courage when he fight Goliath ?! why he didn’t feel afraid or worried ?? I learned from David. First, David knew his GOD, David not just knew his God but he really knew exactly everything about his GOD, he had a personal relationship with God, he recognized God very well, who God is and where God’s place in his life. Second, David believed in God. Because he knew his God very well, so then he could believed in his God. He was not just believed, but he put his trust in God. Why ?? because he had that personal relationship with God, he had an intimate relationship with God.

We can see in every words that David had said in 1 Samuel 17:37  “David said moreover, The LORD that delivered me out of the paw of the lion, and out of the paw of the bear, he will deliver me out of the hand of this Philistine ..” and 1 Samuel 17:45-47 “David said to the Philistine, “You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied (46) This day the Lord will deliver you into my hands, and I’ll strike you down and cut off your head. This very day I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds and the wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel. (47) All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord’s, and he will give all of you into our hands.”

David not only had a great faith in Lord God, but he really had a sweet personal relationship with God, so he knew his God personally, like a son knows his father very well.

When we face Goliath, means we face the giant problem that might be so impossible for us to solve it or to win it and to passed it. But then God reminds me, David would never be a king if he never fight Goliath before. And David would never won the battle with Goliath if he never fight the bear and the lion before (1 Samuel 17:37).  Can you see the pattern ??

David not only knew and trust God when he faced all the giant problems in his life, but he knew that God upgrading him. Goliath came not without a reason ! God let David faced Goliath to upgraded his life because David was meant to be a king.

When in my difficulties, to be honest I scared, I worried, I cried even I never shown it in the public place. I almost give up, well .. it’s human, though. When my job feels like killing me and I began to complain and to grumbled, God always reminds me this : “In your difficult moment, God is upgrading you ! He is upgrading your life, your strength, your brain, your ability !”

 

So guys, He’s upgrading your position !!!

I wasn’t good in real accounting study, but God puts me in here, teaching these teenager about the accounting, I even didn’t learned very well about the accounting process, the ledger, the financial statements when I was in college, but I know my God and I trust my God. I know He has a great reason to put me in here. Well, He’s upgrading me, though. Now, eventually, like it or not, I must learn again about the accounting and so I will expert in this subject. Maybe this is not the job I dream of, or maybe this is not the life I expected, but then I realized to be happy or to not it’s all my choice. 

When you feel life is not fair, you should read David’s story. Did he blame God when his son Absalom  try to killed him ? and David wasn’t counted in his family because he was so small and he didn’t considered among his brothers, but God made him became a king. So when David become a king of Israel, David keep lived close to God but his life full of problems, chased by Saul and almost 400 men wanted to stoning him (1 Samuel 30:6), he even sinned against the Lord God, but David had a special place in God’s heart. Because of what ?? Because David choose to stay in God’s presence, he choose to keep his life worshiped God. 

That’s why I always love David’s story, because the story of his life completely the same like each of us. David was a human like us, he wasn’t a prophet like Elijah or Elisha. He was a human same with us, he made mistake too, but what was make David so special ?? his heart ! 1 Samuel 16:7 “But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 

To be honest, even I have read the bible everyday, pray and praise worship every morning before I start doing my activities, sometimes I still make my mistake, I still done something wrong or make stupid decision, but it doesn’t means I live in that mistake, it doesn’t means I keep doing the wrong things. Instead I could learn from my stupidity, and when I have heart to God, it means I have a strong desire to fix all my mistakes, I really want God to fix me, I want God to redeem me. When we have heart to God, it means, we want God to take a good work on our life instead of our ego.

My life is precious, even Jesus died for saving my life because for Him, I am precious ! But it don’t makes me away from my “Goliath”. I wouldn’t make it to all my dreams if I don’t face Goliath. And when you find your Goliath, hang in there guys, keep on fighting and don’t give up ! keep trust in God, because He’s making you to step the higher level of your life !! The reason Goliath exist is because God wants to upgrade our life. 

Your life is precious !! Your rich friends or your popular friends might seems have a life that we dreamt of, but you never know that they actually facing their own Goliath, you never know what they are dealing with, because if life was easy, it’s not worth fighting for !

My life might not easy but life is a choice. Well, God ask me to choose blessing or a curse (Deuteronomy 11:26-28, Deuteronomy 30:19-20). And of course, I choose blessing. If I can happily receive and enjoy the rainbow, why I must complain and distressed my self with the storm ? Well, it’s all for today guys, I hope it could bless you all. Keep your personal relationship with God, don’t loose it, though !

 

So, “Goliath” is not that bad, right ?? and do still you afraid of it ?? :)

Thanks for Jesus Christ that giving me His wisdom to write this and sorry for the bad English and the bad grammar. God bless you, all :D

THE MIRACLE WOULD NEVER STOP

Hi Guys, missed me ?

Well, for my writing today, I try to write it in english version without anyone help. I hope I won’t make mistake, though. And for my english buddies, please don’t laugh. Still, this is my first step to begin my big vision “Going International”, so that everyone in every place in this world  could read my blog and I could share the Glorious of God to the world.

Okay, back to the topic “The Miracle Would never Stop”, I don’t know about you guys, but what my life, is a life that never get easy to live. A life that I have to walk day by day with every struggle, with every fight and with every battle to win. Is that obvious, that what life is.

I got a new job by the way, an accounting lecture, and for me it was a miracle, though. It was a miracle because I was actually not worth for that job. But with this job, at least I can move on with my own money, I’m proud I can earn my money now and not asking from my mom and dad again for grant my needs. I even could buy a birthday gift for my little brother with my own money. Well, it’s not a lot of money that I earn but its quite enough for everything that I need.

Getting the new job not answering what my hope really is. The truth is I HATE MY JOB ! I’m grateful for my job, I do. But this not what I want, not that I don’t want to work hard, this all just not my thing, I don’t choose this job in the first place. I’m not good in accounting, though. I was in a wrong major, and now I’m like stuck in a place that I shouldn’t belong. The reason I take this job is to get move on with my life, but I don’t have passion on it.

Now, should I blame God for this ? 

Guys, when I said my life was not easy and it is not easy, I was raise by a single mother, that had to acted as a mother also a father. My dad had passed away since when I was 4, it was not an easy life because I didn’t have a father figure. All I know my mom had to work to earn the money and didn’t had time to taking care of me. And sometimes I got jealous with another kids a.k.a my friends when they was picked up home from school with their dad. And the crazy part, I was the only child and I grew up alone and with my busy mom being a father. Yeah, I look so pathetic. But the good news is “hello, I still alive ..”

I realize I’ve been so useless living my life. Well, it so obvious because I had choose the wrong major when I went to college and I didn’t learn it very well. It was long ago away when I haven’t met my Greatest Mighty Amazing Lord God, Jesus Christ.

Enough for the intro and let me share something that you guys should learn from my mistake IF you really want to have a good life and achieve your dreams.

This not the story of my life, it just the story of God has created us beautifully in the first place. How God show His love in our life, how God never fail on giving the best in our life, how God show His Greatness and how God won’t ever give up on us.

I was born as a Christian, but I was not a good Christian at all. I went to church but I still done the wrong things, I even pray to God when I needed something. So early in 2011, I realized that my life was a messed, whatever I did was wrong, if I want something, I got it in a wrong way, then I realized it didn’t satisfied me. Then entering 2011, I asked my self, what I really want, what is my goal ?!  That year I realized I got 25 for my age, and I was jobless, I still studied in my master degree. I can see at that time, my mom felt that I was a failure. Not just my mom, everyone member of my famiy saw me as a failure, even I did thought that I was a failure. I didn’t had hope, I screwed my life and I just born to be a pathetic girl. 

25 years old and I was nothing but a looser at that time. Until someone told me “Life without Jesus is nothing”. And it was the year I found Jesus in my life. The year I made covenant with God. The year I build my my life again with every hopes and every wishes in it. It was a good year, I saw miracles. Slowly, I felt my life changed. Like God released the Israel from the bondage of the Egypt, so did my life was released from every stupid thing I used to do. I could use my money wisely, I could filter my friends and the important thing was, I know what I want and I know where would I go. I felt complete !

It hasn’t stop until there actually, this is the prime thing I would share. I found Jesus in my life, I felt free, I saw miracles, but the question is, am I done ? is that the end of the road ?

Getting a new job without an official certificate actually one of a million miracle that God had gave to me. Even there are a lot of people out there with their certificate but they still jobless. I’m so blessed and I’m so grateful of that, I do. Even I know it was not that easy as it looks. 

The day I got the job, I promise my self that I wanted to give the best. I knew I was not good in real accounting but i wanted to learn. I remember when I read “if someone asking you walk in one mile, then walk in two mile..”

I want to walk two mile, I asked God, how I could walk in two mile in my job ? Then God remind me,  I am walking two mile, though. While everyone in my office work one mile because it is their field, they are expert in accounting and they have experience in lecturer. If they ask me to write like a journalist or even to preach, or to motivate people, I can easily done it, because it is my thing, that’s what my life for.

I walk in two mile, it means I’m not just prepare the slide presentation for lecturing, but I have to learn it more about the material that I would teach. When people in my office read the books in only one hour, I must read the books in five hours or more. Well, it not just I have to struggle with the lecturer thing, I also have to face the circumstances in my office, all the pressure, all the deadlines, the critics, the people. To be honest, physically I give up and mentally I’m broken. And sometimes I got stressed to death !

In every prayer, I don’t know how much tears I dropped. I lost my community, I lost my friends, this job makes me like a nerd. This job is so much away from my dreams. See, even I have pray every morning, every night, everyday, every moment, I still walk through the desert. Should I complain ? I’m trying to not.

While I almost lost my vision, while I almost gave up on my dreams and my goals, God never lost me and He never gave up on me. God reminds me in Deuteronomy 1:29-31 “Then I said to you. Do not dread them nor be afraid of them. (30) The Lord your God who goes before you shall fight for you, according to all that He did for You in Egypt before your eyes, (31) and in the wilderness where you have seen how the Lord your God carried you, as a man carries his son, in all the way that you went until you came into this place.”

Here is my favorite part “Lord your God carried you, as a man carries his daughter, in all the way that you went until you came into this place”. Well, I prefer to read it with “the daughter” because I am His daughter, but don’t meant to change the word of God.

Anyway, this is my last part of this writing. Remember the story how God with His Greatness brought the Israel out from the Egypt ?! The Israel saw all the miracles that God had did to took them out from Egypt. They had saw how amazingly God answered their prayer and rid the Israel from the bondage of the Egypt and brought them to the promise land. But when they entered the desert, they started to complain, they lost their faith, they lost their vision and their goal. They started to leave God behind, they even made another god for them to worshiped

If we read again to the next verse of Deuteronomy 1:32-33 “Yet in this thing you did not believe the Lord God, (33) who went in the way before you to search you out a place to pitch your tents, in fire by night to show you by what way should go, and in cloud by day.”

This morning, in the middle of my hopeless to reach my dreams and my big vision, I found a way to get my faith back. I have seen every miracle since I made a choice to put God in a first place and Jesus is my first love. But it’s not a guarantee that I would not get a problem. I am entering the desert now but I knew I’m walking through it, not live in it. 

God never promise us to  have life without problems, He never promise  that our life would free from tears or sort of. But one thing that He promise us, that He will never leave us. And when He said He never leave us, it means we will see a river in the middle of the desert, we will not get starve while we walking through the desert. And the important thing, when He said He will never leave us, it means we will make it through the desert and enjoying the promise land with God.

God promise us to be a winner or even more than a winner, but we will never be a winner if we not get into the battle field. What is your battle field ? Is it your future, your dream, your family, your job, your finance, your debt ?? whatever is our battle field, hang on there guys, God never leave us. Always remember, one person with God is an army and a winner ! 

Oh, by the way, I will not give up on my dreams, because I know the miracle would never stop. Don’t loose your faith, guys. 

Well, it’s all for this writing. I hope it could be blessed for you all and see you in another awesome story of God, though.

WHERE IS YOUR HEART ??

Saya mendapati beberapa kali kita sering mengalami yang namanya “patah hati” bukan ? Serikali kita juga mengalami keadaan yang namanya “kecewa”. Saya pernah baca sebuah quote “cinta, patah hati, kekecewaan, air mata, sukacita, itu semua bagian dari hidup, hiduplah dengan itu”. Jika dibaca mungkin secara teori benar, tapi apakah itu kebenaran yang ingin Tuhan berikan dalam hidup kita ?

 

Lewat tulisan kali ini saya ingin mengajak kita untuk membuka pikiran kita, membaca tulisan ini dengan logika saja. Dan saya ingin membagikan bahwa apa benar Tuhan ingin kita hidup dalam kekecewaan, patah hati atau air mata ??

Hari ini saya membaca bacaan alkitab Firman Tuhan dari Hosea, hanya sekedar membaca dan tahu bahwa Tuhan pernah jengkel dan geram sekali dengan bangsa Israel. Setelah membaca bacaan alkitab Firman Tuhan, saya masih belum mendapat hikmat apa2, hanya renungannya adalah “Jangan mendukakan hati Tuhan dengan berhala2 kita”. Sebagai orang Kristen, kita pasti mengerti bahwa kata “berhala” adalah hati dan pikiran kita melekat kepada hal yang kita senangi di dunia, dengan kata yang lebih singkat renungan dari bacaan saya kali ini maksudnya “Jangan menduakan Tuhan”.

Setelah itu saya kembali beraktifitas dengan kegiatan saya, tiba2 saya tidak sengaja mendengar lagu “Don’t you remember – Adelle”. Saya perhatikan lirik2nya, sepertinya menyedihkan sekali, rasanya sedih jika saya berada dalam posisi orang yang mengalami kejadian seperti yang ada dalam lirik lagunya Adelle ini. Dan sebenarnya, jika boleh jujur saya pun pernah mengalami hal yang serupa, rasanya sedih dan kecewa menjadi orang yang ditinggalkan dan dilupakan. 

Saya lalu mengabaikan lagu yang saya dengar itu, karena buat saya lagu itu tidak membangun mental saya jadi kuat. Kemudian saya berpikir lagi dan merenungkan lagi, kenapa bisa terjadi kekecewaan, sakit hati, bukankah harusnya cinta itu indah ya ?! Bayangkan saat kita mengalami “love at the first sight” kita bertemu orang yang memiliki senyum yang indah sampai mata kita dibuat silau oleh senyumannya, setelah kita mulai dekat dengan orang tersebut, ternyata kita memiliki perasaan nyaman, perasaan yang kita tidak bisa dibohongi dan perasaan yang tidak bisa kita tolak untuk ingin terus bersama orang tersebut. Kemudian waktu berlalu, kita mungkin menemukan kejelekan dari orang ini, kita merasa tidak nyaman, atau seiring waktu dan banyaknya kegiatan kita, pekerjaan kita atau mungkin keadaan kita dengan orang ini, membuat kita jenuh dan bosan, sampai akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk mengakhiri hubungan yang kita mulai dengan gairah yang luar biasa.

 

Coba kita bayangkan posisi orang yang kita tinggalkan, awalnya dia menganggap kita orang yang biasa saja, awalnya dia tidak memiliki perasaan apa2 untuk kita, tapi dengan segala usaha yang kita lakukan untuk bisa menarik perhatiannya dan untuk bisa bersama dengan dia, akhirnya dia mau untuk memberi hatinya, perhatiannya untuk kita, seperti yang kita harapkan. Lalu waktu berjalan, dia manusia biasa, dia memiliki kekurangan yang memang tidak membuat kita nyaman, tetapi seiringnya waktu dengan keadaan yang naik turun dia memilih untuk tetap bertahan bersama kita, mengambil segala macam usaha yang awalnya kita lakukan untuk dia, sekarang dia lakukan demi mempertahankan hubungannya dengan kita, sampai2 dia mempertaruhkan sepenuhnya dari hatinya untuk kita, tetapi karena keegoisan kita, kita memilih untuk meninggalkannya. Hasilnya dia mengalami kekecewaan, hasilnya dia mengalami yang namanya sakit hati, hasilnya dia merasa menjadi pihak yang dirugikan, hasilnya dia menjadi membenci kita atau berharap “karma” dapat menghukum perbuatan yang kita lakukan kepada dia.

Setelah hal itu saya renungkan, ada banyak hal juga dalam hidup yang sering saya lihat bahwa begitu banyak orang yang juga mengalami kekecewaan saat harapannya, mimpinya tidak kesampaian. 

Mari kita bayangkan jika kita mungkin seorang pelajar, kita ingin sekali mendapat beasiswa untuk bisa masuk ke universitas terbaik yang kita impikan, dengan segala usaha, belajar mati2an, kita focus pikiran kita, hati kita untuk mengejar mimpi kita, namun pada akhirnya ternyata kita tidak mendapatkannya. Yang terjadi hasil yang kita peroleh hanya kekecewaan dan serasa musnah hidup kita saat itu juga, karena itu adalah hal yang kita kejar selama ini.

Tidak tahu apa yang saya pikirkan saat itu, ada banyak orang yang saya temui juga terlalu focus dan masalah mereka, terlalu meletakkan hati dan pikiran mereka sepenuhnya untuk masalah2 yang mereka hadapi, mereka benar2 melakukan segala cara dan focus dan perhatiannya kepada masalah hidup mereka, bagaimana jalan keluarnya, bagaimana penyelesaiannya, akibatnya mereka menjadi larut dalam depresi dan air mata mereka.

Saat saya merenungkan ini satu per satu, saya mulai diingatkan kembali dengan satu sharing bagus dari teman saya yaitu “Tuhan sedang mencari hati kita, dimana kah hati kita berada ??”

Bayangin seorang pribadi Tuhan, pribadi yang Dia memiliki kuasa atas langit dan bumi, Dia memiliki kuasa diatas segala kuasa yang ada di muka bumi ini, Dia yang memiliki semua hal yang ada di jagad raya semesta ini, seorang pribadi ini sedang mencari hati kita. Dia sedang melihat dan mengawasi kemana hati kita berada saat ini.

Sesungguhnya Tuhan tidak butuh kita, Tuhan tidak membutuhkan kita untuk dekat dengan Dia, Tuhan tidak butuh untuk kita berdoa setiap hari, Tuhan tidak butuh kita untuk mengenalNya, Tuhan tidak butuh kita percaya kepadaNya. Tuhan tidak butuh kita,  bukankah kita ini ciptaan dan buatan tanganNya ? Kalau Tuhan mau, dimusnahin saja semua ciptaanNya ini agar tidak membuat Tuhan repot, benar bukan ?! Harusnya kita yang membutuhkan Tuhan, harusnya kita yang mencari Tuhan karena kita membutuhkanNya, membutuhkan pertolonganNya dalam hidup kita.

Namun bayangkan, Dia sedang mencari hati kita ! Bukan karena Tuhan membutuhkan kita atau tidak, tetapi karena kasihNya yang begitu besar untuk kita, kita ini sudah diberi status ANAK. Dia Bapa kita, Dia mau kita memberi hati kita dan perhatian kita hanya kepadaNya, bukan karena Dia membutuhkan kita, tetapi karena Dia tidak mau kita terluka, Dia tidak mau kita mengalami sakit hati, kekecewaan dan air mata. 

 

Artinya, saat seorang anak mengenal bapaknya, anak itu pasti percaya kepada bapaknya. Seorang anak tidak akan peduli apa yang dia minta, atau apa yang dia hadapi, selama ada bapaknya bersama dengan dia, dia tidak akan takut dan ragu, karena dia percaya selama ada bapaknya bersama-sama dengan dia, hidupnya akan baik2 saja, hidupnya akan aman2 saja, dan dia yakin akan mendapatkan apa yang dia minta dari bapaknya, dia akan sepenuhnya meletakan kepercayaannya kepada bapaknya, karena dia mengenal bapaknya, dia memiliki hatinya sepenuhnya kepada bapaknya. Karena itu Tuhan mau kita seperti anak kecil yang percaya, tetapi bukan anak kecil yang merengek2.

Saat kita bertemu dengan orang yang kita cintai, yang selama ini kita nanti2kan, apakah hati kita tetap kepada Allah Bapa kita ? Berbicara hati dalam hal ini adalah sikap. Logikanya saat hati kita senang sikap kita pun akan menunjukan bahwa kita senang, saat hati kita bergembira dan bersukacita pasti sikap kita adalah dengan tersenyum, tertawa, bersemangat, bahkan melompat – lompat. Atau sebaliknya saat hati kita sedih, pasti sikap yang kita tunjukan adalah menangis, murung, tidak bergairah dan tidak bersemangat. Benar bukan ?

Sama halnya, saat kita sedang jatuh cinta dengan seseorang, sikap yang kita tunjukin adalah selalu ingin bersamanya, 24 jam serasa 24 menit, lalu saat hati kita sepenuhnya untuk orang yang kita cintai ini, pasti sikap yang kita tunjukan adalah dengan segala usaha untuk mempertahan keadaan selalu bersama dengan dia, apa yang kita kerjakan, apa yang kita lakukan semuanya tentang dia.

Sama halnya dengan mimpi dan harapan kita, atau masalah yang mungkin sedang kita hadapi, semua hal usaha, perhatian, focus, segala hal yang kita kerjakan dan kita lakukan semuanya tentang mimpi atau harapan kita, dan atau masalah2 yang kita hadapi.

Akibatnya saat hal ini terjadi, pertanyaan besar adalah “posisi Tuhan dimana ??”

Posisi Tuhan sebagai pencipta kita, sebagai Bapa kita, sebagai Yang berkuasa atas langit dan bumi berserta isinya, dimana ?? Dimana kita meletakan posisi Tuhan saat hal ini terjadi ?

Lalu kita gagal, kita kecewa, kita merasa dirugikan, kita hancur (kita selalu menganggap kita hancur padahal yang menciptakan hidup kita saja adalah Tuhan sendiri). Kita bersedih, kita menangis, kita depresi, kita stress, kita sakit hati, merasa sendiri dan tidak punya siapa2, merasa tidak ada yang mengerti posisi kita, atau malah kita mengadu kepada orang lain, kita mengandalkan pertolongan manusia lain, atau mungkin sangking depresinya memilih mengakhiri hidupnya sendiri.

Tuhan kita adalah Bapa kita, kita tidak tercipta begitu saja seperti teori Darwin, ada Tuhan yang berkuasa yang menciptakan kita. Jika kita memang seorang anak yang mengenal bapaknya, kita pun harus mengenal Bapa surgawi yang memiliki hidup dan mati kita. Kenapa menjadikan Dia no.2 jika kita menjadikan Dia no.1 dihidup kita. Dia selalu menjadikan kita no.1 di hatiNya.

Dimana hati kita ? Tuhan itu memberikan “free will” artinya kita memiliki hak bebas untuk memilih, Dia tidak mau memaksakan kehendakNya atas kita. Dengan kata lain itu pun berarti Dia mau melihat apakah sebenarnya kita memilih untuk memiliki sikap hati menomor satukan dan memberi cinta kita kepadaNya, ATAU memilih untuk memiliki sikap hati menomor sekian kan Dia. Dan jika kita memilih untuk pilihan yang kedua, maka selamat datang dalam kehidupan yang penuh dengan air mata.

Kadang kita berpikir ini pilihan yang sulit, tapi coba kita bayangkan, gunakan logika kita untuk bermain. Jika kita mengenal Tuhan kita sebagai penguasa langit dan bumi dan yang memegang kekuasaan atas alam semesta dan segala kuasa tunduk padaNya, kenapa kita meletakan Tuhan sebagai posisi yang kesekian ?  Kita jatuh cinta, tapi kita tahu bahwa kita mencintai orang yang salah, apa tindakan kita, tetap bertahan atau melepaskannya pergi ? Saat kita memberi hati kita kepada Tuhan, jawaban yang benar adalah yang pertama, sesungguhnya kita tidak akan mudah untuk jatuh cinta dengan orang yang salah, karena kita tahu dia bukan orangnya, kita sudah memperlengkapi hati kita dengan kebenaran dari Tuhan dan memilih taat (sikap hati mencintai Tuhan lebih dari apapun). Yang kedua, kita memilih untuk meletakkan hati kita kepada Tuhan dan mempercayakan, membiarkan Tuhan yang bekerja dan memiliki kekuasaan penuh atas hati kita (sikap hati yang berserah dan percaya). Akibatnya rencana Tuhan lah yang terjadi dan rencana Tuhan lebih indah dari rencana2 kita, karena Dia yang memiliki hidup kita. Simple thoughts, right ?? Hanya dibutuhkan konsisten dan berpikir cerdas untuk memuliakan nama Tuhan. Contoh ini pun sama diaplikasi kan untuk mengejar mimpi dan harapan kita atau pun saat kita dalam masalah.

Bukan berarti saat kita memilih memberi hati kita untuk Tuhan, kita bebas dari masalah ?? Bukan ! Kadang kala Tuhan ingin melihat kesungguhan hati kita, atau kadang kala Tuhan ingin mendidik dan mengajar kita, karena orang yang dikasihiNya diajar dan dididik.

Contoh kasus yang paling terkenal adalah saat Tuhan ingin melihat sikap hati Ayub dan sikap hati Abraham (saat Tuhan minta Ishak dipersembahkan).

Mungkin saat membaca tulisan ini, sebagian dari kita mengatakan “mengatakan mungkin mudah, cuma teori sih mudah, coba kalau dipraktekan ??”

Percayalah, saya sudah melewati banyak hal dan karena itu saya dididik oleh Tuhan karena Dia ingin saya pun menulis ini dari hikmat yang Tuhan berikan untuk saya, lalu saya membagikannya. “7 kali orang benar jatuh, 7 kali dia akan bangun” artinya kita boleh melalui masalah dan pencobaan, tetapi itu tidak melemahkan kita.

Lalu seperti Amsal 4:23 mengatakan “Jagalah hatimu dengan segala kewaspadaan, karena dari situlah terpancar kehidupan”. Jika kita logikain, hal ini sama seperti yang sudah saya contohkan diatas, percaya tidak percaya boleh dicoba. Saat hati kita sedang jatuh cinta dengan seseorang, apapun yang kita lakukan bahkan apapun yang kita bicarakan adalah tentang “si dia”. Saya punya teman, setiap kali saya ngumpul bersama dia, yang dia bicarakan adalah pacarnya, setiap kali kita belanja bersama, yang dia beli adalah barang2 untuk pacarnya, sampai kadang saya bosan sendiri jika sedang bersama dia, karena segala yang dibicarakan adalah pacarnya (gak penting banget !!). 

Well, kalau saja kita bisa seperti itu untuk Tuhan kita, dengan siapa pun kita bertemu, yang kita bicarain adalah tentang kebaikan Tuhan, tentang cinta Tuhan, tentang kasih Tuhan. Mungkin kita bingung kalau mau belanjain Tuhan, mungkin hal ini, lebih ke perbuatan sikap jatuh cinta kita memberi persembahan yang terbaik buat Tuhan, melayani Tuhan, bertahan dalam keadaan apapun untuk Tuhan. Sampai Tuhan bilang “Oh, you’re so sweet, my child !”. Bapak mana yang tidak memberi semuanya untuk anak yang seperti ini, apalagi Bapa kita yang disurga yang memiliki segala2nya, kalau kita minta mobil BMW, Dia bahkan tidak segan2 langsung memberi mobil Jaguar.

Kita pun tidak dituntut untuk menjadi sesempurna itu, Allah sudah terlebih mengasihi kita, Dia bahkan memberi anakNYA yang tunggal untuk mati dikayu salib menebus dosa2 kita. So ?? Dimanakah hati kita ??